lost of lost weekends

my friends my close friends my less than close friends my new friends and old ones, the loved ones, the difficult friendships, the tests we endure, the balance of days coming together and moving apart between embrace and another thread goes to lace, searching the photos for those times you together captured, did they vanish, no trace? and then the sun rises again and you find one another and stand by and cry and try to find the heart and it comes so natural like a Lexus start, clean and quiet, eyes meet eyes in subtle surprise, the things unsaid, the weight like lead....falling off your shoulders and now your older and see it to contextually in the texture of the connection see? and the sublimation occurs, two hearts collide, energy synch dream! friends seldom seen and then its like a dream again, seen again. but why so far apart? you fight it, stomping your feet til the dust comes up. the trust come up and recede again, like the lost of lost weekends -- a painful trend left you wishing and crying for more, feeling the living and dying, feeling right down to your core....it hurts but it means something, too. so live! so true! so be there in spirit, you say it, you mean it, i am there in spirit, damn it, i mean it! i can lose the colloquilism, touch the vernacular, turn it inside out and make it spectacular. this will work at any distance, like quantum physics like a system. the charges we send us like photons the light moves. the energy hits airwaves you catch on your itunes. the paradigm keeps shifting its tectonic plates. the dishes they fall on the floor we explore, find out what we are made of, the texture, the real thing, we thirst and manifest and burst on the scene. listen and you may hear it. the tear, the salt the water so simple, like tide rush cool over your feet in sand, the way we understand one another, like a sister, call you my brother. this is a rush cause its true, your family is those who mean something so real to you.