so you know (note to an secret admirer)

listen
pay attention
close

my recent batch of friends
were killers pimps
and thieves

they took me through
the streets east
oakland

i fell generously
2 my knees

today i'm left
with memories
slow death

a poisoned self
defense

my eyes always
open
sensitivity post
acute

i'm twice as hot
inspired
as anyone
i know

simmerin'
slow
just under
boil

my eyes mix green
thread hazel
out of the
blue

the blue
is royal

if your
intentions
are like others

hid behind
some dusty
charm

listen
watch me fearlessly
you

fearlessly you
disarm

my friends and me (we tried)

my friends
come out
these places
come out
the psych ward
in 72 hours

or more

these places
my friends

and i
i go
in hiding

my cats
Mousey and
Boo Boo
too

i learn
to love
again

again
these cats
they teach
me

my god
goddess!
dear god!
divine

i pray
i go 2
hiding

the world
the earth
so tough
so hard
she

sucks away
my breath
sometimes

my friends
lose means
my friends
to ends

we come from
psych ward
planets

dreams smashed
eyes of
visions

we tried

and i
i go
in hiding

moonlight redemption song

She is easy
easy on
the eye
sunny side
down
sea foam
sky

maybe u were
depressed

now its
ancient
history
high

Shadows teased
out from
dark places

maybe you
were depressed

before she
reached
you
drew you
close

She is easy
on the eyes
she upends
a pack of lies

maybe you felt
depressed

Come here child
into her velvet
luminescence

come elbows
come shadows
come knees
come sorrows

Come miles
and miles
of smiles
and smiles

Come here
heavy hearts
and disease
come thickening
etoufée of
malaise

Come seated
diamonds
glancing
off rings

come puppy feet
demons in
sirensong
sing

come flu-like
symptoms
and the nation of
sneeze

Welcome
lighthearted
islands of
breeze

Let us remember
our single
source
origin!

Let us rejoice!
from Portland
Maine
to Portland
Oregon!

Recall all the politics
and faded old
paradigms
back to the lab
with their tail
dragon
fire

Maybe you were
depressed, well
be that no more!

Tonight under moonlight
our world gets renewed!

An bright
honest soul
all what
came of
a liar

(you won't stop) loving me

my threads got tattered cuffs
i'm arrested in my motion
my voice got a cynical
growl
my clothes laundered
colorless
like the ocean

my angles rounded out
my deeps now shallow
what was wet is now dry
my blues tepid
against the blues
 of sky

and you
you
my love
why you won't
i will never understand

you
why you won't stop
i will never

you my love
loving me
me

god
i thank you

i won't stop

trying 4
your love
my love

no matter
your sad eyes
settled

on the past
at our feet

look up!
i want
your love

your body
language lost
2 me

i open
my arms
like a fool
again

i thirst
what's worse
i dream
in need

alone
i moan
i ache
i smoke

i am the bonfire
on the 5
july

my love
my love
won't stop
my love

my life
has become
an heavy fog
hovering

your love
the light
obscured
my love

your love
my love
my life
a knife

please cut away
the sheets
of gray

and let me see
the light of
day

i won't stop
my love

until
you do
i'm 5
july

i'm through