slow mo

tail end of the nightmare pandemic

an extended slow mo hug was greater

than any antidepressant stronger than

any drug    #katyamills

shift.ing

life once was song 

created and produced by crickets

ina full throated silence

now 

flying down a dirt road at dusk 

consumed with emotion 

she demands 

we find another

gear

#katyamills

lover girl boy

she choreographed the words

by heart channeled to the lips
conducted by the tongue she
wanted him he wanted
her. the earth shook the
ground beneath cut up into zigzags they
held their ground they
held hands across the divide
and made the world
whole

#katyamills

free the ever given

endless tugboats and an egyptian

full moon high tide

could not dislodge the floating 

skyscraper lost its bearings in a sandstorm

blocking the artery

giving the world a stroke

#katyamills

static pop

the more involved 

they was the harder 

2 disconnect. when tugged upon 

ina loving direction they

wires uncrossed 

the sparks

how they

fly

        x

x

   x

           x

      x

#katyamills

re.set deux

abandoned they car by golden
arches campers panhandlers
broke up a field of mustard they
kept a journal and the basics
nothing much. feckless wasted burnt
off they last sawbuck on god knows
what. chin up. dodgin reality
the life of the broke woke 

and idle

#katyamills

navel (gaze)

contemplative 

2 the tune of a minor threat horn section

stopping traffic

they relived the days they 

were inseparable

#katyamills

pre.sent

you 

are when you are you

are not when

you are 

not

#katyamills

up from the downtrodden (cover reveal)

SaWaDiKa!

they took no umbrage

amidst another tumultuous attempted overthrow 

born under the lights they faced a hundred million semi-happy believers

palms together they smiled without 

a smile

#katyamills

c.overt

covert

resistance turned

overt in the year of got nothing

to lose

#katyamills

true crime

rolling thoughtful eyes

a milky soporific

tea leaves discarded in an angry

drain.  too long i let it steep too long. i'm sorry

a confession

the weapon

time

#katyamills

re.set

the roads still glistening with dew they 

carved a 180 @ the 5432 

café. a pour over black no creamer

for the dreamer 

#katyamills

the hundred

like a storm cloud 

both - and + charged 

a hundred days they 

venture until

spent

#katyamills

 

1984

you tore into us

drunk again

one of your moods 

unpredictable 

charged 

i tried to make 

myself small i

stood out like a cherry 

on a sea of whipped 

cream

#katyamills

deep cut no.2

life like 

a switchblade 

it can be used 

against you

#katyamills

o.zone

in the ozone

some choose some are chosen 

mixing it up with song and dance

others paid to capture 

and serve to witness in silence

the ultraviolet

charade

#katyamills

corner of over and under

born of a lavender haze

inspiration found an untimely death 

at the corner of over and

under

#katyamills

the little things

shadows under bridges under

trains under eyes the postcards they 

got from a distant memory friend 

could lighten they darkest 

mood

   

#katyamills

return of the ghost of green eyes

ona street confronted 

by the ghost of green eyes

talks to them feeling they 

pain 

knows how to hiss forgot 

how to love

got some crumbs

for you here and some

time 

crying now? 

whatsoever 4 

the ghost of green

eyes they remember 

this was 

forbidden

Dallas

bronzed with nails of gold

sick of waiting on hold 

she threw her hair back 

gotta jump on her '89 Peugeot 

to Dallas. intercepting lines with a decadent hum

intermittence of back lit squares

mascara and eyeliner bold

triumphant she got in on the other

side and out of the cold

    

#katyamills

scrambled march

on zoom we 

were less than full power

like degrees of forests 

set to the tenth april 

shower

#katyamills

aces

when the magic dried up the

onlookers moved 

on 

the suits 

jacks and queens in diamonds

the spades and lonely hearts

the kings

leaving them

only true 

aces

#katyamills

2021 royal

royal in a dollar store 

sucking the life out a green apple 

lollipop coupled with angst

the dyed hair the 

cell phone stare the resignation 

of the throne. the press stalks

with bloody mary

#katyamills

green and blue days

the whippoorwill calls and calls

into the silence. no one answers 

what once they shared

now severed beyond 

repair

#katyamills

back.ward

yes freedom also means you have the right to believe anything no matter how patently false unequivocally backwards and unceremoniously walk away from common sense and wisdom to devote your entire being to the pursuit of social injustice and economic inequality. you live with yourself. 

current z

the boy made worlds

where they could live

the girl commanded the currents

to lean back 

not take no one

too far out where they 

would or could

get hurt 

#katyamills

update

i got a promotion this week -- Clinical Director -- at tpcp.org... excited to make a greater impact for our community ... listening and speaking from the heart ... helping my team of outpatient case workers support our people out in South Natomas and North Highlands ... life is more and more challenging on the streets ... what with mental illness and socioeconomic challenges ... cultural/racial injustices. i ask myself every day: what more can i do to help? at least i have a small platform and some skills to offer. 8 years clean off the hard stuff. what with the poetry, the books, my friends, as a therapist, life keeps getting more and more exciting.

4 keeps

the days unsparingly dull 

then when they lay down to rest 

the dreams like a thriller

replete with all the life they could not have 

encouraged to be somebodys

project dependent and broken they 

sometimes forgot 

the best about them

self what was for keeps

#katyamills

af.fluence

they spirit so affluent 

the gold diggers counted 

they ghosts

#katyamills

bad reel

some introductions fizzle

from the start like a film with award winning acting cinematography and stunts

a musical score to die for  

yet the screenplay shallow piss

poor. a non event a bad

reel

#katyamills